I forgot how good it felt.

It came back. I never wanted it to come back.

I need it though, so I am thankful for its presence.

Last time. Its always the last time. But the pain is so so beautiful. Like a old friend that had been gone too long.

But the pain it took away wasn't so welcome.

I forgot but I remembered. Why leaving needs to be forever.

I always forget. I can't forget anymore.

Maybe it will remind me.